Today is a bit rough. My p is worse than usual. But there is always something good in everyday, right? Allah Maha Baik, is the mantra.

Alhamdulillah. A quiet night is always something to be appreciated. When you have kids, night time alone is much needed for your sanity, or at least, mine.

I can still remember the frantic nights of crying, nursing, and pooping. then crying and nursing. then NGT feeding. then crying and suckling. I haven’t move on from suckling part, but at least it gets less demanding. After (over) 3 years, they finally subside. Heuf.

Lately I turn on BBC Earth at night. I rarely watch TV but this pandemic gets me cooped up in my house and my mind. So I need another view and perspective. News channels are a bit depressing for me. But nature channels make me feel humbled so I think less about the god of self. Hehe. Alhamdulillah.

Lastly, the thing I’m grateful the most is the ability to feel a punch in the face (or heart) when reading a passage from Al-Hikam. Alhamdulillah. Also, a ponder when reading Kay’s 99 Pesan Nabi 2. That is hikmah. Alhamdulillah Allah still grants me one. May I be able to keep it and nurture it so that it blossoms into actions. Aamin. 

As for the “little” things I can not count; a shelter from rain and sun, steady flow of coffee and matcha, food, health, clean water, electricity, books, kids, husband, helping hands, pretty skies. Alhamdulillah. Bill came home early today. Tomorrow is holiday! Alhamdulillah.